Splurging - stationery haul
To be honest, I’ve been having trouble sleeping. I’m physically exhausted and mentally drained, yet my brain won’t turn off at night because I have so many ideas and questions.
“Why am I doing this? Where am I going with my artwork? Can I make this a career?”
This uncertainty should be handled with some of my coping mechanisms yet, I chose to go on a shopping spree (I am broke and feel guilty now lol)
During this quarantine I’ve actually been good about money, but suddenly I just snapped and started purchasing everything, maybe the lack of sleep, irritation and frustration of not being able to go to my favorite shops/stores just sent me over board. I spent money I shouldn’t have :/ maybe I did it because I wanted some sort of happiness in my life. I feel guilty but I don’t regret it.
I actually spent it on merchandise for my bullet journal. I bought stickers, scrapbook paper, a T-shirt with my Harry Potter House on it! I’d like to think it was for a good cause, just me supporting my favorite artists, yet I may be justifying my spending habits (which is probably bad).
Sometimes I just need control in my life and so I spend money to feel better (fast shopping). When I purchase something, it makes me feel good in that moment and make me feel like I’m doing well in life, (being able to afford the purchase) when I’m not. I mean hello, get it together girl! You lost your job... you should not be spending money like this...
I stopped shopping for the moment... and will just enjoy what I do have.
What do you guys think? Am I too hard on myself? Or so joule I be right to smack myself in the face, and face reality? Or both? Ugh. I think I know what the answer is.
Hope you guys have more control than I do <3
These are some of the stickers and scrapbook paper I bought, thrown together with some art printables from my Patreon subscriptions
“Why am I doing this? Where am I going with my artwork? Can I make this a career?”
This uncertainty should be handled with some of my coping mechanisms yet, I chose to go on a shopping spree (I am broke and feel guilty now lol)
During this quarantine I’ve actually been good about money, but suddenly I just snapped and started purchasing everything, maybe the lack of sleep, irritation and frustration of not being able to go to my favorite shops/stores just sent me over board. I spent money I shouldn’t have :/ maybe I did it because I wanted some sort of happiness in my life. I feel guilty but I don’t regret it.
I actually spent it on merchandise for my bullet journal. I bought stickers, scrapbook paper, a T-shirt with my Harry Potter House on it! I’d like to think it was for a good cause, just me supporting my favorite artists, yet I may be justifying my spending habits (which is probably bad).
Sometimes I just need control in my life and so I spend money to feel better (fast shopping). When I purchase something, it makes me feel good in that moment and make me feel like I’m doing well in life, (being able to afford the purchase) when I’m not. I mean hello, get it together girl! You lost your job... you should not be spending money like this...
I stopped shopping for the moment... and will just enjoy what I do have.
What do you guys think? Am I too hard on myself? Or so joule I be right to smack myself in the face, and face reality? Or both? Ugh. I think I know what the answer is.
Hope you guys have more control than I do <3
These are some of the stickers and scrapbook paper I bought, thrown together with some art printables from my Patreon subscriptions
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